Tuesday, January 3, 2023

Right Now, I'm Sleepless in St Paul - Late Night/Early Morning Thoughts

I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday extended weekend, whether you celebrated Christmas, New Year's or any of the other assorted holidays that happen around the end of the calendar year. I had a lovely three days away from the shop, and will be jumping back into "normal" scheduling again starting today. 




My schedule right now is totally messed up. I got WAY 
too much sleep over the past few nights, but tonight I 
got three hours and then awakened, unable to return to 
sleep at all. I'll be dragging by tonight, but I'm giving up 
on sleep for right now. 



 On Sunday, we went to my youngest niece's home for the family holiday celebration, which was lovely. It was a chance to catch up with all of the family, and almost everyone was there. That made for a large household full of people, in a variety of ages from children to elders. There was lots of food and lots of talk, football and hockey, and games and small gifts for the kids. It was great, except for the football game which was horrendous. Still, one can't have everything - LOL. 




The Vikings game on Sunday was pathetic! I'm fairly sure 
there were a lot of fans who were just as disappointed in 
the game and the score as this fan was. (Yes, some people 
really do go all out for their team spirit, and not necessarily 
in a good way - LOL). 



I got caught up on a lot of sleep - I guess too much sleep, since I managed about three hours of sleep last night, awakening at 11:30 pm, and simply couldn't get back to sleep, no matter what. So, here it is, 1:00 am and I'm writing my blog, when I should be sleeping until 3:00 am before my alarm awakens me. I'm sure this three-hours of sleep night will catch up with me at some point, but it seems I'm destined to be a bit of a zombie today. 




The Zombie Insomnia logo just about describes how 
I'm doing right now. I have no good reason for not 
sleeping - I'm not overly stressed, etc. But I know DH 
is super stressed about getting things wrapped up 
this year, so it's time to step in and hire a professional 
to get this underway and done well. 



DH is stressing about how to get the business closed this year - and I understand, totally. I'm churning various things around in my head as well. One way or another, it all has to fall into place soon. I have a direction that I think will work well for us, and I'll try to tackle DH about it later in the week. Then it'll be up to him, but he's stressing about this and I think my direction might relieve some of that stress. Maybe. 




I think there's a way where we won't give up on our 
dreams, just shift them to a different focus. I know 
this can happen, and it can happen well and in a way 
that we'll both be happy with the results. Now to 
convince DH about spending what's necessary to 
have a successful remainder of our lives. 



So, it's now 2:00 am, I leave for the YMCA in a bit more than 2 hours, and I'm giving up on sleep tonight. I'm just not at a point where my mind is at rest. These times, however, are rare for me, so I'll live with the fact that I can't sleep and I'll get some work done before heading to the pool. Have an excellent Tuesday, and I'll be back tomorrow, hopefully at my more usual time. Slava Ukraini. 




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